Finding comfort in memories. This was cold day and was our last day in París previous to ship ourselves to Rome, we sat there for a while, life’s effervescence was at its most, the hurry of common life was making us feel alive, all people doing their stuffs. There was a coffee and a tea over our table. We were there, we were happy. We were full.
“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.”
“On lit pour découvrir une vision du monde.”
Early hours, 5 AM, first coffee is done, stillness and quietness embracing all of this darkness, messy thoughts and intense emotions flowing, magic of these first hours.
“L`essentiel, c`est que ces mots aient été écrits.
Le reste n`a pas d`importance.
Nous ne devons pas laisser de preuves aux chiens.
Il faut ranger nos livres et nos souvenirs en nous.”
“Les mots n’ont pas toujours besoin d’une destination. On les laisse s’arrêter aux frontières des sensations. Errant sans tête dans l’espace du trouble. Et c’est bien là le privilège des artistes : vivre dans la confusion.”
Early AM routines, during those silenced hours, where everything feels like a free choice. That sense of intense flow. Motion from deeper inside. Retrospective. Perspective. Relief.
Sabernos aquí.
“All of man’s troubles have arisen from the fact that we do not know what we are and do not agree on what we want to be.”
“All great art contains at its center contemplation, a dynamic contemplation.”
If I could chose a place to spend my day, probably this would be my choice today.
Made these photos randomly and without conscious intention almost three years ago, time has charged its bill, now it’s clearly mapped out in my mind. All of that absorbing way to catching me up. All that separation from current reality. Healing us.
Random thoughts at 4 am.
Les premières heures et le silence,
les mots et les pensées.
Observations simples.
“Why do people whose existence you are unaware of, whom you meet once and will never see again, come to play, behind the scenes, an important role in your life?”
views from exactly a year ago.
stillness of early hours.
sound of the calm water.
early birds reclaiming the day.
beginnings lasting for years.
“Sauver quelque chose du temps où l’on ne sera plus jamais.”
First weekend in a while where work was not part of the plan.
Freedom and not pressure at all, letting the words to fill my mind, time passing around but everything feels retained while reading occurs.
That magical feeling of being merged with an author’s story. Floating through spaces that were never mine, acquiring property by the simple fact of being there for a few minutes. Merging roles. Raising up those sleepy memories.
“Soy incapaz de encontrar en mi memoria un sentimiento, el que sea, aún menos un pensamiento.”
lectura,
last year was the first one that I was unable to read, my mind wasn’t aligned to the flow of words of those pages, there was a lot of dispersed energy.
day by day to rhythm is returning, that block has been removed or maybe it was just incorporated into my normal flow.
and all about of this is just fine, there wasn’t a real pressure to have this fixed earlier rather than later. It’s just about a personal path each one can take.
All of those worlds created by untold phrases, that unappreciated importance of absence, some kind of presence that only can be read between lines. Uncertain abysses.
je t’aime, mamá.
caminos, destinos. finding home. xxi.
the very first hours and many other incentives linked to the world happening before 6 am.
reading.
writing.
tasting.
flowing.
motion.
“Nous ne serons heureux, se dit-elle alors, que lorsque nous n’aurons plus besoin les uns des autres. Quand nous pourrons vivre une vie à nous, une vie qui nous appartienne, qui ne regarde pas les autres. Quand nous serons libres.”
ballad of early pages. while shadows are still governing landscapes and all remains covered by silence. only slow motion in here. messy thoughts around the air. dislocated emotions. finding space, finding home.
stillness.
5am, horizons covered by darkness, silence around, fixing me up. embracing space.
early destinations, muted voices.
secuencias interrumpidas.